One day, an old campus friend sent me a text message. At first, there was indeed some interest, but in the end, it became just small talk.

“Hey, where are you working now?” he asked.

“At ((sensor)). He he.”

“WOW… YOU'RE REALLY ARROGANT, HUH,” this is how he joked. He might be annoyed because I was reluctant to keep in touch, especially to just let him know that I was working at the same parent company as him.

“You're in ((sensor)). I'm in ((sensor)). He he,” I replied. Honestly, I was just lazy to make small talk about work. At that time, I was experiencing acute insecurity.

“IT'S THE SAME. IT'S JUST A DIFFERENT BUILDING. IT'S REALLY CLOSE. When are you going to the office? Let's meet.”

“I never go to the office. He he. I'm a freelancer. I also work remote.

“Wow, that's nice. You get to travel a lot, huh,” he joked again. Maybe he thought I was working as a journalist sent to cover outside the city, not bound by time and place, and could breathe air outside the cubicle desk and computer screen. His response made me even more insecure.

I work as a freelance worker or casual worker. More precisely, a freelancer under the corporate umbrella. At that time, I was still working remote. Maybe because my friend worked full-time and always went to the office, he started to expect that my job was nice. Maybe he was bored with the rigid office routine that stifled his freedom, so when he heard ‘remote work’, suddenly, what came to his mind was heaven. Even though I was overwhelmed with insecurity, I understood his position a little. After all, we were both at a disadvantage.

At least for the current condition, I am part of the millennials group that wants to work at a standard pace—which sometimes sounds ‘conservative’ for this 4.0 era. Like regularly going to the office or being assigned by the office to go out—clearly not staying inside the house. I could go to a cafe to work on my tasks, but that’s still a consideration because I’m actually broke.

Other desires, for example, to be able to meet regularly with office colleagues and build enjoyable friendships—aren't these relationships a healthy work ecosystem? Then, of course, I want to earn a decent income, receive benefits, and various other accesses.

Unfortunately, I have to accept the reality; I spend more time working at home with equipment and internet data that I bear myself, never face-to-face with colleagues even video calls are not happening, an inadequate income, and of course no benefits.

Earnings below the minimum wage, transferred monthly, but if I don't go to work—whether the reason is sick or for any permission—it is still deducted based on the number of absent days. So, I almost never absent even if it’s a public holiday or a great holiday—unless I'm desperate—or I try to find replacement hours by trading schedules with colleagues.

Indeed, some people feel suitable working as freelancers plus remote. A person's living conditions also determine the ideal job type needed within a certain period. These conditions are always fluid and can change at any time. For example, a mother with a toddler might find it difficult to work full-time, thus freelance can be an alternative. But what about my situation as a (back then) fresh graduate, with a mediocre economic background, and starting to feel frustrated after being rejected by companies repeatedly?

This freelance work is my first ‘official’ job in a corporation. Previously, I had only worked as an intern and part-time jobs. Initially, I thought, instead of being unemployed for too long, it’s better to take it. At least the contract says that I can leave whenever if I get a job in another company. After some time, it turned out to be not as easy as I imagined.

I felt stuck in a box and kept spinning inside it. Job applications to other companies went unanswered. On the one hand, I wanted to give up that job—which was toxic to me—but I always hesitated. This is a dilemma. Because if I resign, I would have no income. In the end, I had to extend the contract again (and again?).

The reality is, remote working isn't always as beautiful as many people imagine. Not everyone is suited to this system. Harvard Business Review once released a short review of research on 1,100 workers. They said that 52% of those who remote work at home tend to feel isolated, especially if they never have direct contact with coworkers who stay at the office. This is what I roughly feel.

During nearly a year of remote working, I could count on one hand how many times I went to the office; when training and orientation as new workers, when signing and extending contracts, and when invited to attend the year-end meeting. All forms of telecommunication were only through text messages, and in the chat room, only work-related topics were discussed. There were no regular meetings as if freelancers were merely small crumbs and not part of the company.

After almost a year, the company offered freelancers the chance to work at the office. The reason was that face-to-face interactions were beginning to be seen as a communication necessity (see, I told you. This is very important in a work ecosystem). As an implication, the salary was indeed increased but still not significantly. The mechanism and workload didn’t change—thankfully, the jobdesk didn’t become heavier.

Then the next reason, the company wanted to improve the quality of production. At this point, I started to cringe. Of course, I was happy if the company kept improving ‘quality’ considering its negative image in previous years. But, wait a minute. Wanting to improve production quality but by employing young freelancers, on short-term contracts, and minimal salaries?

The company reasoned that it had financial constraints, as its income was declining that year. Reportedly there was an ‘efficiency’ of permanent workers in the office, some of whom were ‘laid off’—I do not know whether they were transferred to another business unit or truly ‘sent home’.

In the end, I gave in because I had no alternative choices. Moreover, to maintain my mental stability so that I can often engage in activities outside the home. Honestly, during my remote work, my mental health deteriorated.

This experience made me question the touted work flexibility that was said to enhance worker and company productivity. Many say millennials like this type of job. But actually, who are the 'millennials that tend to prefer flexible work'? Which millennials?

If they mean urban millennials who have privileges and stable, even affluent economic backgrounds, such flexible work is probably not a problem. They do not worry about whether the amount of money in their account is enough, whether they can save or not, whether they can buy this or that or not.

I often doubt the surveys and research used as the basis for arguments that ‘flexible work is like a paradise with promises of freedom’, isn’t it biased? For instance, how diverse is the respondent pool used in the sample? This needs to be examined and critiqued further.

Moreover, the media simplifies that narrative concoction in various ways. Just try googling, for example, with the keywords ‘millennials and flexible work’, most results speak in a positive tone. Furthermore, companies legitimize the trend of flexible work among youth purely for production purposes; minimizing expenses as much as possible by employing young people under PKWT.

Well, if work flexibility is accompanied by fulfilling workers' rights and treating them humanely, who wouldn’t want that? But let alone that utopia, even permanent workers' rights are still often ignored.

Moreover, hey… ((remember)) if the Cilaka omnibus law—which is still a hot debate—one day gets approved, what will happen to workers like me? With the Cilaka Bill yet to be passed, I'm already struggling to survive in an imbalanced work-life, let alone if it gets officially enacted?

The Chairwoman of the Media and Creative Industry Workers Union for Democracy (SINDIKASI) Ellena Ekarahendy stated during a discussion at Walhi National, Jakarta, Thursday (20/2) that if the Cilaka Bill is passed, it will allow for a wave where workers become permanently temporary workers. And this is increasingly worrying for young workers, especially fresh graduates, as they are in a difficult position to gain high bargaining power. The relationship of becoming permanent workers becomes increasingly challenging.

The principle of ‘easy hiring, easy firing’ is indeed the spirit advanced by the Cilaka omnibus law. As the Coordinating Minister for Economic Affairs Airlangga Hartarto ‘confirmed’ that this Bill will regulate the flexibility of working hours as well as ease in the recruitment process and termination of employment or layoffs (katadata.co.id).

The image of flexibility perhaps stems from the boredom of a rigid, stagnant work world, like what my friend above experienced. Workers long for freedom, flexibility, and leniency. But what if that 'freedom' turns into another form of prison?

A prison that is subtly built by corporate logic, facilitated by capitalism, reproduced by technology and the digital economy, and… legalized by the government? Work flexibility ultimately becomes a myth in the 4.0 civilization. A myth for the working class who has no power.

Author: let's just say her name is Mawar.